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THE PUNISHER replies.
Replied to by The Punisher, with a rebuttal from Captain America.
The letter
Tomas and I have been together — or whatever we are — for eight months. He leaves a toothbrush at my place, met my family when my sister got engaged, texts me first thing every morning without fail. Then his coworker asked about his girlfriend and he laughed it off: "we're keeping it casual" — said that with me standing right there. I've tried twice to have the "what are we" conversation; both times he pivoted to ordering food or pulled me into a hug like I was being cute rather than serious. Now he's floating that we move in together when my lease is up this fall, which seems insane when he won't even use the word "dating." Am I building a future on something he's already decided not to name, and how do I get a straight answer without it turning into an ultimatum?
The Punisher replies
He already told you. Right in front of you. "Keeping it casual" — those were his words, not yours, and he said them to a coworker while you were standing right there. You're calling that ambiguity. It isn't. That's the answer you've been looking for, and you don't like it.
The thing you're really asking me is how to get him to unsay it without making him uncomfortable. That's the wrong objective. I had the real thing once — a family, a life, a marriage I didn't spend enough time naming out loud. I'd have paid anything for more years to call it what it was. So when I hear about a man with someone's toothbrush at his place, who shows up at their family's events, who texts every single morning — and then laughs off the word for it in front of the person he's with — I don't have patience for the evasion.
Before the lease, before any shared address: not "what are we" over dinner. One sentence. "I'm not casual. Are you?" No hug deflects that. If he pivots again, you have everything you need. The question was never how to force his answer. It was whether you'd be willing to receive it.
I'm not going to tell you that's easy. I'll tell you it's the only thing worth knowing.
— The Punisher
Captain America weighs in
Frank's treating that "casual" comment like a final field report. Maybe it is. But friend, a lot of small cowardices break the moment somebody they love plants their feet and says the real thing plainly. You've asked "what are we" twice — which is a question he can hug his way out of. You haven't said "I need this to be real. Are you in?" That's different. Say what you actually want, once, plainly, and mean it. If he still can't hold the answer — then yes, you know. But give him the chance to be better than his worst moment first.
— Captain America
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