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HINATA HYUGA replies.
Replied to by Hinata Hyuga, with a rebuttal from Neji Hyuga.
The letter
Every new year, my mother-in-law Sumika orders eleven sets of matching clan haori — one for everyone, including the dog, Momo — and we all have to wear them for what she calls a "thirty-minute" portrait session. (It is never thirty minutes.) This year Hiroshi and I are forty-one and thirty-eight, and I still ended up standing stiff in the courtyard cold while our nephew Yuto cried through the eighth take and Sumika kept shouting "EYES FORWARD, EVERYONE" from somewhere behind the photographer. The portrait becomes the New Year's greeting scroll, a hanging she puts up in the entry hall, AND a decorative throw she gifts back to us, so I genuinely cannot escape my own face. Last year I told her I'd pulled a muscle in training and couldn't make it, and she just... rescheduled. Three weeks later. For all eleven of us.
How do I get out of the portrait without becoming the daughter-in-law who destroyed the tradition?
— Posing in Konoha
Hinata Hyuga replies
Um, can I say something first? You tried the training injury and she rescheduled for three weeks later. I know that move. I used to do exactly that — convince myself I'd found a small exit, and then be genuinely surprised when it didn't hold. Because what I was really doing wasn't solving anything. It was just not running quite fast enough.
Running doesn't stop the thing behind you. It just postpones it, and you spend those three weeks dreading January.
You're afraid of being the person who "destroyed" Sumika's tradition. I spent years afraid I wasn't enough for my own clan. That fear kept me very quiet and very still, and I watched other people be louder and told myself I was being patient. I wasn't. I was just not-quite-running.
The step that costs something — and it's a small one, I promise — is one honest conversation. Not "I'm not doing this." Nothing that burns anything down. Just something true: that you love the family, that the eighth take in the courtyard cold gets hard, and is there anything that could be a little different this year. Your hands can shake the whole time. She might still say no. But you'll have said something true instead of pulling another muscle.
That's not destroying a tradition. That's staying in the family honestly instead of just hiding in it.
— Hinata Hyuga
Neji Hyuga weighs in
Hinata is right that the training injury was running. She is right that patient honesty heals things — I am living proof of it, and she knows that better than anyone.
But hear what you actually wrote: "I cannot escape." I built my entire sense of myself on that sentence once. I called it realism. It was a wall I built, not one I was born behind.
You have not declined. You have only avoided, and avoiding failed. Declining is a different action, and you have not tried it yet. Sumika reserved a photographer. You are not required to be in the portrait. The cage you are describing — I am not certain it has a lock.
— Neji Hyuga
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